I wish

There's only one thought that fills my entire mind today...

I wish....

that i could find love & be loved again...

Wake up girl

I feel unexpectedly moody and down, for some reasons I couldn't tell. I hope it will not haunt me for any longer, because I think it would be silly for me to feel so. But, how could I control such feelings? Especially when it comes to sentimental matters. But hell no...I don't want to feel worse anymore. Enough till here please, emo viv!

Seriously, I'm surprised that i would feel moody and down after we talked about your matter. How could it be possible? It SUPPOSED to be impossible, isn't it? Lets hope that it cease here, and go no further; because it would be a disaster if i hang onto such complicated feelings.

Therefore, i shall awaken the sensible and rational side of me, and send the emotional and sentimental side of me to sleep......

Wake up girl....there's no hope for u there, only disappointment and disaster.

Be Happy

Find a reason to be happy, I told myself. And YES!!! That's what I'll be working on!

I m not trying to say that I wasn't happy all these while, but right now, I wanted more! Something more interesting and adventurous perhaps?

First of all, I will need to state down "What interest me?" and "What I would love to do/have?" I like out-ing actually, which I think most people wont believe! Haha. Anyway, I would like to try new stuff, see new and interesting things.... yeah....i mean SEE~ Let my eyes capture the beautiful views and moments around me. I like to capture things that are beautiful. Or every now and then, some simple but meaningful moments. By then, it came to my mind that, oh ya! I need a new camera!

Camera? Nay~ not SLR....too bulky for me....and i don't have that much budget either! Muahahaha~ i still prefer a thin and light digital camera. After all, all the latest digital cameras come with lots of functions and features too! So, my first aim is to get a new camera! Hola!

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I read someone's blog in blogger today. I love her blog so much. And surprisingly, she inspires me, in a very good and positive way. She inspires me and help me to understand some matters. I can't believe either! It's amazing.

And right now, I just need to enjoy my life to the fullest, my way. Why should I care or feel sad if someone says I am not beautiful? I don't have to, because somewhere out there, there are people who thinks I am. Why should I be moody over someone who doesn't miss me, when there are people out there who miss me? What I am trying to say is, if there's someone who doesn't see you, it doesn't matter, because there are others who will. All I gotta do is be myself, right?

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Alrite....don't go too far....enough of Viv's Philosophy....

First target : Camera!

So.... camera......here I come! Muahahaha~

去哪儿了？

去哪儿了 那份对设计的兴趣与热情
去哪儿了 那原本活跃又创意的思维
去哪儿了 那打从心里要奋斗的精神
去哪儿了 那水汪汪有神的心灵之窗
去哪儿了 那秀出凌乱牙齿的大笑容
去哪儿了 那抬头挺胸满满的自信心
去哪儿了 那所有疼爱我的人的呵护
去哪儿了 那对世界美好存有的希望

一路走来 才发现失去了这么多真我

我的兴趣 我的热情
我的创意 我的奋斗
我的视觉 我的笑容
我的信心 我的爱护
我的世界 没有了我

我去哪儿了。。。。

需要时间 找回自己
再次努力 为了自己
看见自己 更爱自己

永远记得 我在这里

平安

Too many disasters,
too many sickness,
too many broken-hearts,
too many lost-of-hope;

People panic and cry
over their lost home,
lost of their closest family & friends;
and lost of fortune;

We pray,
for victims of earthquakes, floods, snow storm...
may strength, hope & will stay with you.

祝你们平安

*picture taken by a friend, edited by myself*

"Peach and Love"

Artwork: Peach and Love

(some of the artworks I need to do for freelance.)
It's not perfect, but I just simply love the flowers.

Angel vs Demon

There's always two sides of ourselves...the Angel side (good side) and the evil side (bad side) of us. Sometimes we are stucked in between, what to choose? which side to choose? Shall we go with the angels, or demons?

In the world that i live in, you need to be both Angel and Demon. At the end of the day, what that matters most is that WE LOVE OURSELVES!


My Angel and Demon

Paper Crane

Paper crane, a piece of art that represents hope and dreams. It's a type of Origamie art, and basically that is the only Origami that i know how to do. Hahaha. It looks simple, but it brings and represents such deep meanings and hopes.

We see in dramas, people fold paper crane when their loves one are sick or hospitalized; they hang them on the ceiling and bind each of the crane with thread, and so that they will fall like a curtain. Children loves colorful paper cranes, adults adore them too, for paper crane brings hope and may prayers to be heard.

I had lots of paper cranes at my hometown room, which i folded and kept for more than ten years. Very colorful paper cranes. I do not remember why i folded them. But they were kept nicely in the drawer under my bed.

It doesnt matter if those paper cranes really bring hope or make dreams come true. The important thing is that we admire and appreciate the beauty of Origami paper crane.

To all whom i love & care, may your life be colorful and beautiful, like these paper cranes.

And thank you to those who love & care for me too.

I just couldnt...

I am so down
I couldnt convince myself
that being alone is okay
because it is not.

I am so down
I couldnt stop myself
from feeling jealous of people
who are so-in-love & are in loved in return.

I am so down
I couldnt erase the fact
that I am so afraid of being alone
and who knows how long it will last?

I am so down
I couldnt stop aging
that i had walked pass half my lifetime
without finding someone who really loves me.

I am so down
I couldnt see my future
whether I will find The One, at all.

I am so down
I couldnt control myself
to stop thinking about all these shit-s
that affects myself so deeply.

I am so down
And I will give myself one day
to feel how deeply down I could be
Because tomorrow
I will not let this feeling conquer me again.

And this is me,
please allow me to feel depress today...

Rockschool Poster

This was something i did for freelance. Not much of concept or theme, just "rock". I recevied some compliments though. Hehehe~ Thank you to my friend who offered this job to me, even though i did it for FREE! Haha~ NO more FREE jobs ya! Except for charity ^.^

Toyshop Wallpaper Design

Illustration? It's been a while.... hahaha~ Glad that i can try something cute & childish though. Let's give it a try!

The first thing that came into my mind was Wonderland. Influenced too much by Alice in Wonderland i guess! My Toy Wonderland has huge cupcakes and mushrooms, and lollipops flying in the sky! The Castle was a challenge, i dont know what kinda castle i should draw. And last but not least, the "Alice in Wonderland kitty" (sorry i dont know it's name!) welcoming the children into Toy Wonderland.

In hope to provoke the feeling of walking into a wonderland with this wallpaper.




-Toy Wonderland-


Another idea came into mind is something more simple, a plain and repetitive pattern. More baby-like though...



Now we'll just wait and see what the client thinks about them? Haha...