Wednesday, December 23, 2009

My Year-end Spell

It's end of year 2009, and i have come to a conclusion whereby My Year 2009 SUCKS!!!

I seriously think that my year 2009 sucks. I questioned myself over and over again, why? why? why? Why do i need to experience those stupid break-ups, which had seriously make my life fall apart and miserable? At first, I do not want to talk about these, but the more i am keeping to myself, the worse I'm feeling. I feel unfair!

Every human being is greedy. We give out, and we expect something back. But it seems that along the year, I gave out my heart, but i got nothing in return, except disappointment and negligence. Frankly speaking, I'm a very greedy person. I'm greedy for love. When i give, I expect people to treat me the same way. Don't tell me I'm asking too much? When I fall for someone, I love truly and sincerely. I would do any sweet and romantic things to make our relationship worth. But someone said this to me this year, "you're like plain water. Simple, important but not challenging and adventurous." Thank you so much for that! I would remember this my whole life.

Whether or not I'm a glass of plain water, you felt that way because you do not know the true me. And if you do not know the true me, then back away! Plain water? A plain, simple and normal drink that people, even children, take for granted. People choose to love other drinks like wine, beer, juices, coffee tea or whatever, who would choose plain water as their favorite drink? But have u ever thought, that plain water is the most basic and important drink in our daily life. You take it for granted when you are happy and crazy in fun, but you would BEG for a glass of plain water when are sick or in serious thirst! Beg for it guys!!

Would anyone understand exactly the hurt and anger that i have been experiencing? A hurt and angry feeling that would come and go, just as they like. Damn. Yes, because they were finding all sorts of excuses to leave me or break my heart. I do not want to act like a pathetic victim in your game. So i let go. But it does not mean I'm a weakling! Comes back and sounds so sorry and concerning, feel guilty already huh? I forgave all of you, when others said I should not be silly. And I always welcome you back as friend, why am i doing that? Because i do not want a single foe or enemy in my life.

And take in all the feelings and blames at the first place, in hope that there would be a change or miracle. But now i realize, miracles hardly happen. Maybe they will, but hardly. So, where's my miracle?

I want a miracle. A miracle so beautiful and lovely, that I will meet The One soon, my soul mate. And after all the disappointment, I still pray hard, and faithfully.

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Alas! The witch will be fine. She'll be strong, holding on to her faith and belief. And she hopes the one that she loves now, will loved her dearly in return too.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

What's Love?




I love my friend's facebook shout-out, saying:

"We ignore the ones who adore us,
Adore the ones who ignore us,
Love the ones that hurt us &
hurt the ones that love us."

How sarcastic Love can be right? And it's so true isn't it? It's exactly what happened to us.
So, at the end of the day, what's true love anyway?

Why do we ignore, or feel annoyed by the ones who adore us? We have our admirers, people who cares and loves us for all sorts of reasons. They show us how much they care for us, even willing to wait or sacrifice for us. But we felt annoyed about that, or rather 'not feel touched' at all. Why are we like that?

And surprisingly instead, we would fall for the ones who kinda ignore us, or the ones who doesn't really care about us. Why? Is it because it's challenging? Do we treat that as a challenge?

And finally when we fall for each other, they hurt our feelings. Or i would say, it's because we care too much and take the relationship too seriously that we become paranoid, somehow? I do not know. We tend to think that our love ones hurt us, but what can we expect? We should not expect others to do exactly what we want them to do; or be someone we expect them to be. At the end of the day, Love is just so hard......

At last, try to love with all our heart and cherish all the ones who loves us, because they love us for who we are, that that's really sweet and lovely.

Monday, December 21, 2009

I - love - you




When you tucked my hair behind my ears,

When you run your fingers across my hair,

When you kissed me on the forehead,

When you put your forehead against mine,

When we whispered and exchanged secrets,

When you looked into my eyes even not saying a word,

When you looked so shy,

When we shared a cup of ice-cream,

When you wanted me to sit on your lap

as if there's no other couch in the house,

When we cooked our 'Imaginative toast bread',

When we played Spiderweb,

When we stood at the balcony and listened to the wind bell

and felt the cool breeze of midnight....

All these are just wonderful

because I feel loved,

and even the simplest action or word can mean a lot.

All because I love you.

But, I dare not to say the words....

Thursday, December 17, 2009

爱屋及乌

那天,他可爱的问我,“老板最近怎样了?他好吗?”

不爽。。。

“你应该问的是我好不好,不是老板好不好吧?”

他呵呵,然后说,“爱屋及乌嘛。。。”

本小姐华语真的差到不行。。。爱屋及乌?什么东东?

他解释说,“Love someone, and love everything around that someone."

哦恍然大悟。。。然后甜甜的笑了下。

原来是爱屋及乌。。。

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喜欢一个人,就要包容他的一切

好与坏,

但有些时候,包容一切未必就能长长久久

因为世上有太多不可思议,

太多无法预料,不在掌握之中的事。。。

那就是人的改变

最后,我们不就只是要一个‘肯定’,

一个 promise

却不会有一个肯定的‘肯定’,

因为败在人的善变与喜新厌旧

所以,我们唯有珍惜当下

现在开心就开心

明天和以后的事,

再说吧。。。。。。

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

A Poem


*** A special poem for you ***

I like you
for so many reasons,
large or small
and all of them are wonderful.

I like you
for all the special qualities
that make you "You",
one of a kind.

I like you
for the things you say or said,
that bring such special meaning to my life.

And I like you
when your eyes and your arms
tell me all i want to know.

I like you
because you know how
to bring out the best in me.

I like you
just because i do......
Because now,
in a place where
there was nothing before,
in the deepest part of my heart......
there is love again.

***